Every year I try to come up with extremely meaningful resolutions that I get really Gung-Ho about for a few weeks and then forget about. Instead, this year I want to come up with the things that I want to shift my lifestyle toward. I probably won’t completely achieve these by the end of 2012, but I think they’re worth actively moving toward. No more “I’m going to lose weight!”, none of that “I’m tots gonna wake up at 6am each morning to go for a run!”, or “I’m going to ONLY DRINK FRESH JUICE EVERY DAY” kind of thing, it never works for me. I want to try setting myself up for success this year, and that means recognizing that even long-term goals take longer than a year, and the best that we can hope for is active growth towards the things we want in our lives.

1. I want to learn how to love better. I found this article recently called “10 ways to love others” and I want to start implementing this in my life more naturally. More and more I find that it’s important to actively love and care for those people around me because it’s not disastrous or anything, but most people can be pretty negative, which, I think, is a result of all of the negativity in the world. The news and media only hype up negative things, our friends use things like twitter and facebook to complain on their statues. I’m only one person, but I want to move toward loving more.

2. I want to actively engage in the things that I believe in. I find myself engaged by things by Nutrition and health in younger generations, and the queer-rights movements. These are the things that I want to more actively be aware of changes of. I’m not saying the other things don’t matter — they do, but these are the things about which I am passionate.

3. Taking care of myself. I know this seems a bit silly, and I do take care of myself. I eat right, I exercise, I bathe myself. I want to, as Jonathan Safran Foer says, think myself into happiness. What I mean is, also taking better care of my mental health as well. I tend to be a workaholic and throw myself into projects and assignments, or worse, bake, when something is wrong or I’m not feeling one hundred percent mentally or emotionally, so I want to work toward doing things that will better me, instead of just push it away. They’re small things but if someone has said something that offended or hurt my feelings I want to, instead of ignoring how I feel and making 8 dozen cupcake, go for a walk, meditate, do some yoga, have a drink with someone that makes me laugh, even put on some fun make up. I know it seems silly, but I think to do any of these things I have to begin with me. Elie Wiesel says,

But where was I to start? The world is so vast, I shall start with the country I knew best, my own. But my country is so very large. I had better start with my town. But my town, too, is large. I had best start with my street. No, my home. No, my family. Never mind, I shall start with myself.


4. I’m writing this in a completely positive manner, but I want to work toward lowering my expectations of other people. I hold myself to a really high standard, and I’m not perfect, but I want to be, and I really need to work toward understanding that other people don’t work toward the same standard that I do. I want to learn to recognize the work and effort that each person I encounter is putting into getting out of bed each morning, experiencing life, and being a good human being. I found this article on Thought Catalog called “Things A Person Is Not,” and I want to keep adding to the list of what other people are not. They, just like me, are not perfect. People get lost when they’re coming to meet you somewhere, they spill pancake batter, they complain to you and sometimes insult you just because they’re angry at something else and are taking it out on you. I want to have the ability to understand this with more grace.


Ultimately, I think these pursuits will help me SUIT UP and become more awesome, because, as NPH says,

unofficial attraction


Christmas was amazing. I got to spend a few days with my sister and niece in Virginia. I can’t even put into words how wonderful it was to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas day with family. I was sorely missing my other sister though. I’ve already decided that we’re all going to be together next year. It’s imperative. Tuesday my mom and I drove back to Florida.

my niece, seeing that santa had come while she was sleeping

Yesterday marked the end of “Christmas” for me because I got my last “present” of the year. It wasn’t really a present, more like the presence of two wonderful friends. I got to spend the day at Disney with Dan, who came to visit Orlando from Iowa by way of St. Augustine, and Caroline, who now lives in Orlando and works at Disney, but since I’m never home for long I only get to see her a few times every few months instead of EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. (which is not fair at all.)

We began the day at Animal Kingdom. We got Fast Passes for Everest, went through Dinoland, rode a few rides, and then enjoyed the beauty of The Festival of Lion King. This is the BEST thing ever. There were tumblemonkeys, simba, and sorry friends, you play some Lion King tunes and who will be singing along? This Guy.

Dan and I at Dinoland!


After that we wandered around, went on Everest at our Fast Pass time and had lunch in Asia. It was fantastic. Afterwards we headed over to the Boardwalk to go the cheater way into Epcot and avoid the Epcot parking lot. I love the Boardwalk, it’s so cozy and beautiful and calm, and I’d much rather be there than in the parks sometimes.

the three of us on the boardwalk ❤

Finally, we arrived at Epcot. Epcot is my absolute favourite of the Disney parks. I’m not sure why, I just love Test Track, and Soarin’ and Mission Space OH MY! We tried to get fast passes, ride single rider, get on anything but the park was so packed, and we just weren’t willing to wait two hours to get on anything. We had our first ciders and rode Nemo. We knew we had to return to the UK for another drink though. We did get to see Captain EO though, which is all you really need 😉

Then we decided to partake in the best unofficial attraction Epcot has to offer: drinking around the world. We began with ciders and beers in the UK. You can see in the background of this photo why we had to return here (re: the very good looking British bartender named Mo).

Mo. The bartender.

Then met Alice so Dan could get a picture with his favourite Disney woman, and then moved to France where we had delicious slushies! They were so delicious and beautiful, and we had funnel cake when we walked over to America and the day just kept getting more and more beautiful.

Caroline, Remy, and I

We continued around the world, drinking in Japan, Germany, and by the time we got to Mexico we were all done. We rode the Mexico ride and headed out of the park, speaking poetry for our friend Mo. After Disney we hit Taco Bell, and World of Beer where I had the most delicious lambic beer.

It was the most beautiful day. Correction: I’ve had the most beautiful last seven days.


Love, B


take your time.


I’m coming home. Rather, I’m already home. It’s the winter holiday and I’m home, knitting, drinking tea, reading books, doing nothing productive. AND YOU KNOW WHAT A WEIRDO I AM?! I just tried to make a list of things I could do to GET AHEAD next semester. Self, stop it, you’re a freak, so just stop it.

That being said, I thought I’d take a moment to share my reading list for this break, just in case you have a bit of free time as well!

  • The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera (again.)
  • The Lovers’ Dictionary by David Levithan (again.)
  • The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov
  • The Help by Kathryn Stockette
  • The Line of Beauty by Alan Hollinghurst (currently reading.)

Maybe I should find some happy books to read too…