It hurts my heart to watch the news more often than not, so I check up on what’s happening in the world with news sites and apps, and I typically keep my comments to myself but I was watching the Trayvon Martin closing statements today as I waited in the doctor’s office with my mumsi and I had some thoughts.

That’s new, I know!

Anyway, I am a fairly frequent traveller. Not frequent enough to have a boo-thang in the cities that I travel to, and pay for a subscription to the express line at the airport, but frequent enough to have all my liquids in a clear plastic bag, and have my laptop out, my shoes off, and everything out of my pockets without being told at the security check.

Unfortunately, despite being prepared, wearing no jewelry, not smuggling kinder eggs (AHEM.), and following protocol of 3oz liquids (cake frosting, by the way, is considered a liquid) I still am randomly selected for extra screening, bomb-swabbing, or having my meticulously packed bag unpacked at the clumsy hands of a TSA representative 8 out of 10 times that I fly.

And why? A twenty-something young woman poses a threat to national security?

What I’m saying is that like Trayvon Martin, it is because of the color of my skin that someone with very little actual power in the world has tried to have some kind of power over me. And the difference is that I walk away from being searched at the airport annoyed, but alive.

The same cannot be said for Trayvon Martin and for so many like him.

But I don’t think this is a new problem for us, as a society. We are afraid of what is different from us.

“Fear of the unknown. They are afraid of new ideas. They are loaded with prejudices, not based upon anything in reality, but based on… ‘if something is new, I reject it immediately because it’s frightening to me.’ What they do instead is just stay with the familiar. You know, to me, the most beautiful things in all the universe, are the most mysterious.”

I am keeping my thoughts and prayers with the family who lost their 17-year-old son, because I don’t know that I can tell you what ‘justice’ means, but I can tell you that Trayvon Martin doesn’t have the opportunity to go to college, have a family, fall in love, and that there are parents out there that had to bury their child.

Love, B

klean kanteen.


The health benefits of drinking water have been entirely exhausted in every health magazine, blog, and pamphlet in the civilized world. (I say civilized world because everyone else knows water is good for you and doesn’t need a magazine to tell them so.) The health benefits of chlorine, however, have I feel, been less explored.

I jest. I don’t really care about the health benefits of chlorine. Nay, this post shan’t be about the health benefits of chlorine.

because it’s summer and I’m good…




If you don’t know what movie that’s from I highly recommend you re-evaluate life choices leading up to you not knowing what movie that’s from.

June is barreling on, and I’m so excited about everything that’s going on. I’ve been working, and dancing, and rehearsing, and exploring, and having the most fun with the others that are stuck in Tallacrappy for this stretch of Summer.

Seattle AdvEnture nUmero dOs is coming up soon, and until then, since I brought it up, the rest of this post will be a public service announcement about the benefits of drinking water:

1) Water keeps you looking young. (YES GURL.)
2) Water helps your body flush out toxins.
3) Water aids in digestion.
4) Water regulates your body temperature.
5) Water improves mental alertness.

Enough reasons to drink water?


(swim in that.)

Happy Summertime



Summer adventures have already begun, but most have been in and around Tall-ay so I haven’t written about them. That being said:

Tomorrow begins the first of many Great Summer Adventures

If you would like to check out my adventures, join me over at my travel blog


Love, B

a year in review


The semester is over, and as such I feel like I’m just a hop, skip, and a jump from 2013. I’m so excited to be spending my new year with some of my favourite people — vacation can’t come soon enough!

I’ve had a hell of a year. I realized this when I mentioned it to someone a couple of days ago: I have been waiting for the year 2012 since about elementary school. My idealistic 9-year old self mathematically figured out that I’d be done with college in 2012 and that that would be the greatest accomplishment of my life (no, my 9-year old self didn’t even have an inkling of the notion of grad school).

So I decided, why not take a look at the last year (mostly in pictures) and relish in what an amazing roller coaster of a year this has been?

Join me?

The year got off to a great start. In January I got back to school, auditioned for grad school, danced in a flash mob, baked like crazy, and had some rough times that the best friends I’ve ever known got me through. The year continued on this fantastic path with February and my birthday being perfect (dancing, Twyla, sangria). This month I rode in my first ambulance, which was terrifying and traumatic, but I can look back on the awkward medic who showed me and Emily his mouth tattoo fondly. Also, doing downward dog in the ER.

My foxy lady sisters received their rings in February. It doesn’t matter how many other red classes or blue classes there are, you guys will always be first in my heart


March rolled around and spring break was an adventure in Atlanta, with making pizza, exploring the city, and doing photo shoots in the park. The last weekend of March, Studio Dance Theatre travelled to the illustrious city of Albany, Georgia for some good ole dancing and horse metaphors. (Sugar cubes, anyone?)

In April I celebrated Bertha’s birthday with some furious scrap booking and I performed in my last ever concert at my undergrad. It was bittersweet. I was so privileged and blessed to have had four years of performing with such dedicated and artistically vital people. This month FLEW by.


May was probably one of the hardest months for me. Not only did I get myself into ridiculous situations that I should have had better sense than to have done, but I graduated from the place I’d known as home for four years.

Graduation always seemed like this elusive far-off dream until it actually happened. I couldn’t have been more joyed than to spend this day with my family, friends, and Agnes Community. The morning of graduation someone told me they’d light some fireworks in my honor, I couldn’t have been happier.


The whole summer was a whirlwind of travelling and exploring the world and figuring out who I am! I wrote about this last month I think so I don’t really need to indulge you anymore on that. I made some mistakes, I did some awesome things, I grew up. (Even though there’s still a lot of that to be done…) If you missed it, check it out in my thanksgiving post!


The final leg of my summer was August — the month to challenge all months. I was in four different time zones, and six different airports over the course of the month. My sisterbear got engaged, I visited Seattle, I bought a car, and I started graduate school. Seriously, I don’t remember being still for more than a few hours over the course of this whole month, and I absolutely loved it.

Lucky for me, September was a month of recuperating and readjusting to the workload of grad school. I spent most of my free time in the library.


October and November blend together in my brain. I was in Atlanta, I was in Orlando, I was at school, and I was at J’s apartment.

I got to see both of my sisterbears this month and  Sandy ruined the family reunion that was meant to happen. I voted for the second time in November and had severe anxiety the entire week before the election, and I was moved and proud of all of the people that got out there and rocked the vote. It was a beautiful display of nationalism for the democracy in which we live.

In Atlanta I was graced with beautiful dancing, in Orlando I was checking out wedding venues for my sisterbear! In any other time I had free I was writing papers and doing all the research in the world. (and hanging out with my BFF Evie)


And now we’re here. December. We’re twelve days in and every day is a new adventure. I’m growing to love the bhum-thai that I am becoming, and I am learning more and more about dance, about the world, about politics, and about the connectedness of human beings.

This blog is a means to connect to human beings. Of course it doesn’t make up for getting out there and talking to people (which, let’s be real, if I get started, I never stop) but it’s a means to share and communicate with those around us (geographically, or on the internet).


Thank you, all: the ones who are here, the ones who have gone, the ones I’ve just met, and the ones that have stuck by my side through everything.

You all have made this year beautiful, and amazing, and sometimes heartbreaking, and most of the time absolutely joyous.

I’m looking forward to the next year of adventuring and seeing the world!

Love, B



I wasn’t able to post any pictures while I was abroad because I was working from an ipod and couldn’t get my photos onto my ipod to post. That being said, I wanted to share some on this blog, so every now and again look out for a photo or two and a short story about my adventure.

I’m back in Atlanta now, but I feel different. I’ve been feeling different ever since I got back to the states just three weeks ago. Maybe different isn’t the right word. Maybe the word is better. Better than what, though? I don’t even remember. I’m happy to be here though, happy to be starting school, happy to get to impact my dancing and my writing with all the things I’ve learned.

On writing, I’ve learned this:

The purpose of poetry is to remind us how difficult it is to remain just one person, for our house is open, there are no keys in the doors, and invisible guests come in and out at will.



Traveling Light
by Linda Pastan

I’m only leaving you
for a handful of days,
but it feels as though
I’ll be gone forever—
the way the door closes

behind me with such solidity,
the way my suitcase
carries everything
I’d need for an eternity
of traveling light.

I’ve left my hotel number
on your desk, instructions
about the dog
and heating dinner. But
like the weather front

they warn is on its way
with its switchblades
of wind and ice,
our lives have minds
of their own.

is the stupid convention in town?


No, seriously. Is there a convention of stupid people currently gathering in Orlando to convent about their stupidity? If so they all apparently decided to dine at the restaurant that I work at today.

I have never been so bombarded with stupidity in my life. I worked an 11 hour shift today and I’m in complete awe still.

How can I organize this? Let’s just write out these different scenarios and go from there.

Idiot 1. This man comes into the restaurant and asks if we can seat him and his family. I answer that we aren’t seating any more parties for the evening because the restaurant is full. This is how the conversation goes

Man: But we’re staying at the resort
Me: Okay…
Man: So we’re supposed to get preferred seating.
Me: Yes, I understand, but priority seating applies when we’re on a wait time and it cuts your wait time in half.
Man: But we’re staying at the resort
Me: Yes, but we’re filled to capacity for the evening and aren’t able to seat any more tables – we just don’t have tables available.
Man: But we are staying in the resort…

I thought I was talking to a brick wall, seriously. I explained again that we were. not. seating. anyone. else. for the night again and finally he turned around and left.

I’m getting annoyed just writing about this now. Needless to say, today was an incredibly long day and I have an 11 hour shift tomorrow so I’m going to bed right now.

All of this makes me think of a movie I saw recently called “A Fish called Wanda” and a line where Jamie Lee Curtis responds to the statement “Don’t call me stupid” by saying, “Oh, right! To call you stupid would be an insult to stupid people! I’ve known sheep that could outwit you. I’ve worn dresses with higher IQs…Now let me correct you on a couple of things, OK? Aristotle was not Belgian. The central message of Buddhism is not “Every man for himself.” And the London Underground is not a political movement. Those are all mistakes, Otto. I looked them up.”


you know what i’d find?


Joe Fox: I think you’d discover a lot of things if you really knew me.
Kathleen Kelly: If I really knew you, I know exactly what I’d find: instead of a brain a cash register, instead of a heart a bottom line.
Joe Fox: What?
Kathleen Kelly: I just had a breakthrough.
Joe Fox: What is it?
Kathleen Kelly: I have you to thank for it. For the first time in my life, when confronted with a horrible, insensitive person, I knew exactly what I wanted to say and I said it.
Joe Fox: I think you have the gift for it. It was a perfect blend of poetry and meanness.

one headlight


Does anyone remember The Wallflowers? Apparently my subconscious decided this morning would be a throw back to the 90’s. Kid Cruz from Orlando’s XL 106.7 was holding a contest for whoever could “finish those lyrics” and I decided to enter it. All of a sudden I was sitting in a field of vegetables growing. The contest called for you to meet around a pool with a whiteboard that you were supposed to write the lyrics on. I kept writing words that weren’t the lyrics and I kept singing the words but I couldn’t make myself write them down. Then I stared drawing pictures on my board but still couldn’t get the lyrics out.

Hey, hey, heyyyyyy
Come on try a little,
Nothing is forever,
There’s got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and cinderella
put it all together
And we can drive it home
with one headlight.

Now this song is echoing endlessly in my head. I need some rice crispies. NOMNOMNOM LOL If you happen to feel like listening to this song because it reminds you of the 90’s, look at my Vod thing on the sidebar – I posted the video!

Today I’ll be taking the six year old and Ankush to a trampoline warehouse so I’ll have to take a photo to let you know how that goes.

is there really more to orlando?


Disney. Yes, we hit up disney today. Of course I’ve been to Disney at least once a year, if not more, since infancy. Of course I’ve been on all the rides and know where every ride camera is. But the six year old loves it and my boyfran (okay, I’m so tired of calling him that, Ankush) had never been.

I woke up pretty early, had my cereal and hung around the house waiting for everyone else to wake up. By 12:45 everyone was ready to go. We entered Epcot and the heat overwhelmed me. We went on all the rides, experienced Nemo and then finally went to the one thing I was looking forward to: Soarin’. For those who have never been – you’re missing out. I don’t know if I could ever actually go hang gliding without having a serious panic attack midair but this ride is fantastic. You feel like you’re flying and you can smell all the things you’re flying over. My personal favourites are flying over the beach and the orange groves.

The day ended with fireworks at Disney, then we came home and I took a cold shower and had a bowl of cereal.

Every time someone comes to visit me here I feel obligated to take them to Disney and Universal and the beach because well…what else IS there to do that is amusing and special? I haven’t figured it out yet and my brain hurts from being in the sun so I’m going to stop trying to be insightful and go to bed.